Discomfort and Learning How to Have a Good Time

Travelling alone. It's already a little nerve racking. Travelling alone when you have lady parts...things get a little more daunting. Living in a different country for a few months where you have only three acquintences and no knowledge of the language...Ohhh here comes the anxiety driven queasyness xD So this situation could've gone two ways in my head. Number one, keep to myself and the people I already know (if I haven't mentioned this yet, I'm sort of an introvert), "explore" the places I already know about, and develop a routine. Number two, grow some dangly man bits, accept whatever reasonable open invitation that come my way, explore new places, take chances, and get to know new people. Now which road looks more Lisa Frank to you? I admit Id fall into ruts and revert to scenario #1 (I really am my own worst enemy), but when my mind set existed in scenario #2, I got to know the most extraordinary people and had the greatest time of my life. The best metaphor I have for you guys is what I observed watching people cliff jump off of St. Nikolas. The longer we all contemplated the jump, the more time our fears had to invade our confidence. Sure, take a look down to make sure your trajectory isn't pointed straight at a rock, but then take a deep breath and go for it. Every time I hung out with someone new, explored unfamiliar territories on my own, or said what I truly felt, the results were phenomenal and the feeling so completely liberating (like jumping St. Nikolas). The more I broke down my discomfort barriers, the easier it was to have a good time. I think that's all a matter of perspective too. (It's like how you shouldn't go into mushrooms with anxiety or you'll have a bad trip). You can be in the most beautiful of places and not have room in your mind to appreciate it and the company you're with when all you think about is how you have no idea who the s&%* these people you're with are, wether or not they like you, or wether or not you're acting like a weirdo. So here, being present is key too to having a good time. You can do so much more than you think, and it's all worth it I promise, just don't think so much. 

 Hiking by my lonesome :)

Hiking by my lonesome :)